Quarantine Diaries: Stay at Home
Stay at Home Healing
Life has been insanely different 3 weeks ago. For me, it looked like everything happened all at once this year. My mind has been in a non-stop explosion (If I were to describe it) since the start of the year (or maybe since last year). I have not had the chance to take a pause. Then, all of a sudden, I had to urgently deal with an uncalled mental breakdown, and work-at-home deliverables, and there was the announcement of community quarantine across the country.
That is why it took me around 1.5 weeks to adjust to a new routine and fathom what is (really) happening in the world. It wasn’t easy. It was probably the darkest week I had.
To my surprise, I think this quarantine is my excuse for my everyday busyness. I was able to take a step back and take a look at the bigger picture. It is inevitable to have anxiety right now. I hate being thrown into the unknown. I like figuring things out. I like knowing what is next and preparing myself for it. This whole pandemic thing is changing me inside and outside. But I’m trying.
I don’t have to socialize with anyone, and that is a good thing. For the past months, I have been trying my best to avoid being questioned. “Are you okay?” is the question I came to despise the most. To be honest, I’m not ready to talk or to answer. So right now, I’m (literally) socially distancing with everyone.
Currently, I’m slowly healing and taking my time to do the things I want to do. No deadline. No pressure. There were days when I would just lie down after work (at home), and I didn’t feel sorry at all. I convinced myself that it is okay if I’m not productive.
Because what I need the most right now is to P A U S E.
I’m also finding the inner peace that I’m longing for amidst all the chaos by breathing in and breathing out. And for the first time in forever, I can feel myself breathing life once again.
What I’ve Been Up To
Sharing with all of you the things I’m slowly working on for Moon & Dreams and my quarantine accomplishments:
I revived my online portfolio and blog. Here I am, indecisively spending money again on renewing my hosting + domain for my website. No regrets though. I realized that I missed writing so much, and I ended up writing too many things. My mind is slowly decluttering.
I did a lot of catch-ups on content for Moon & Dreams blog posts, newsletters, and social media.
I’m also trying to work on the updated project management for Moon & Dreams and carefully plan the new collection, design ideas, and surprises. In case you guys are curious, I’m using Notion to organize everything. Shout out to all one-woman team out there!
Revamped a few things on Moon & Dreams’ Instagram and Facebook accounts.
Trying to figure out how to position Moon & Dreams and stay relevant in today’s situation.
Caught up with social media content + planning for my accounts (yes this is a thing for me).
I also updated my Facebook page which I have neglected for years. Who.is.this.
Also, a few things I think are worth mentioning:
I finished Itaewon Class & Kingdom 2 with a heavy heart.
Watched also four Animes (Chihayafuru S3, Boku no Hero Academia S4, Overlord, Boruto)
Binged-watched The Return of Superman. I miss Sungjae, Sian, the twins, and the triplets. Currently, I enjoy watching Hao!
How about you? How has this pandemic affected you, especially your mental illness? I would love to hear your stories!
Thanks for reading!
See you on the next, Pat
